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More Good News!

So you all know that I was featured in the New York Times article about my involvement with the company Airbnb.

Now I am happy to announce that I officially work for Airbnb! I just got the offer tonight and I’m totally excited.

It’s not a lot of money and it’s a temp position to start, but I’m not really worried about any of that. Since I’m a SuperHost with them I already know the system so I’m sure I’ll do amazing and get the permanent job in a short while (which is also when I can negotiate a more reasonable salary).

I’ll be doing customer support through email, which works great for me. Airbnb is flying me out to headquarters in San Fransisco for a week of training, then sending me home with a shiny new MacBook Air so I can work remotely. I’ll be able to work anywhere there is internet. Woohoo!

This is really the best situation for me right now. I love Airbnb and being able to work from home is a godsend… It means that I’ll have the flexibility to continue working on my online shop and growing and succeeding there. So convenient!

Really, I am just thrilled and jumping all over the place!!! Everything seems to be finally falling into place.

It’s going to be a lot of work these next few months (years?). I’m essentially working 3 jobs (With Heart, Airbnb & hosting on Airbnb) plus blogging which sometimes feels like a job. I am also looking into teaching some workshops on various things around Toronto via Skillshare.

A busy girl indeed!


So obviously I’m taking on more work and throwing an epic BBQ this weekend. And a cute boy is coming. A cute boy who I’m pretty sure likes me…

Let’s see how this develops!

Coming Soon: A New Me

Update: You can find all weight loss/Slimband-related posts under the Weight Loss category or by clicking here.

Have you ever wondered what you would look like if you made some kind of big change to your body? Maybe breast implants, rhinoplasty or liposuction? Got rid of your acne, changed your hair colour or had your teeth straightened?

In the coming year I’ll be completing the final step in my journey of self-improvement and I’ll finally know what “the ultimate me” will look like.

For the past 10 years or so, I have been undergoing some changes, both physical and mental. I was a real ugly duckling and filled with self-hate. Through the process of fixing my outside, I have been repairing my insides, as well. Hopefully by the end of it I will look like the beautiful swan I feel like inside.

There are several major (to me) items on my “list” to make improvements to, which I have touched on in previous posts (click here )  and I think it’s time to update them.

Ten years ago, I was:

  • Snaggle-toothed
  • had terrible hair
  • a sloppy dresser
  • had awful skin
  • bespectacled
  • had a whiny voice
  • FAT

Being afflicted in those ways cost me a great deal in terms of self esteem, and probably in other ways I haven’t even discovered yet.

I wasn’t happy. So I did something about it.

  • I had braces & orthodontic work. Now I’ve got a killer smile
  • I grew out my hair & learned basic hair care techniques and styles. My hair is one of my best features now
  • I learned about fashion, style and makeup application. People come to me for tips and advice and I model for photographers
  • I took Accutane and finally cleared my skin up to an acceptable level
  • I had laser eye surgery twice to get rid of the glasses. I’m now 20/20
  • I took voice lessons, sang in choirs & recorded CD’s, giving me a smoother and more evenly pitched voice. Apparently people like to listen to me speak now

And Now

I’m finally tackling the last item on my list. The fat.


Weight loss surgery.

Yup, I said it. I’ve come to terms with my fatness and feel like I’m finally ready for a permanent lifestyle change. Diets don’t work (we all know this) and I’ve just got too much fat to lose to spend all my time counting calories.

I’ve done a TON of research and have decided to get the Slimband procedure done over Christmas. It’s not a miracle solution, but it will be an incredibly valuable tool for me to have.

The band will be wrapped around the top of my stomach, making me feel full a lot faster. This will help me eat less and eventually become satisfied with eating less. In addition, there is a 4-year period of support from the clinic, I’ll be working with professionals to help me deal with my emotional issues surrounding food, learn about proper nutrition and fitness, and basically learn how to eat again, the right way this time.

I chose this form of surgery because it is less invasive, more gradual, adjustable, reversible and I can still keep my band and have a healthy pregnancy in the future. My mom had a gastric bypass years ago and not only is she unable to support a pregnancy, but she also can’t absorb nutrients properly, will be on supplements her whole life and had her stomach butchered. Oh, did I mention she gained back all the weight she lost just a few years later? I don’t want any of that.

You’re Giving Up!

Some of you may think that I’m giving up, taking the easy way out, whatever. But 1. I don’t care what you think, and 2. This isn’t the easy way out. This is my choice after numerous diets and exercise regimes since I was a child. What kind of life is that to live?

This will be difficult, I have to learn a whole new way of approaching food. My body is going to undergo some drastic changes. In a year I’ll be losing around 100lbs. I’ve never been thin before, so I don’t know how I’m going to react to my dropping dress size. So many things are going to change in my life.

For the better, I hope.

A Fat-Free Life

In my ideal fat-free world, more people will smile at me instead of frown as I walk by. I’ll be able to buy the clothes and shoes that I really want, and not be stranded when my bag is lost on a flight. People won’t make fun of me, make snide comments under their breath or even out loud about the way I look. I’ll be able to fit on all the rides in Wonderland! I will be judged less harshly.

Most importantly, I’ll be doing a great service to my mental and physical health. I will be reducing my risk for diabetes, high blood pressure, arthritis and heart disease. My knees won’t hurt as much and I’ll be able to run and swim and fight like I have always wanted to. Being lighter and healthier will help my state of mind, help heal my depression and wounded soul and attract more people to me.

It has taken me a long time and a lot of soul-searching to come to this point. Taking part in fat-friendly communities and blogs has been a real help, and it feels weird to know that in a few years I won’t even qualify to take part in these sites anymore. They were key to helping me accept myself as I was, learning to love myself and be proud of who I am.

I think loving myself more was needed before I could make a life-altering change like this and have it stick.

I wasn’t ready before, but I’m ready now.

Still Looking

Aside from the tea party, searching for a new job has been on my mind the most.

Ever since I got a new boss and realized that I hate my job and it’s going nowhere things just seem to keep on being craptastic.

There’s nothing quite like dealing with the stress of a job that you hate (one that sucks your soul and you don’t get appreciated for) while trying to be positive and find something new.

I’ve been on a couple of interviews in my industry, but no bites yet. I really want to either get into social media (which is at least interesting and related to my skills!) or finally start a business of my own.

Lately I’ve been reading the Four Hour Workweek which is inspiring me a little, and I’ve also been doing some research on starting a small business. There’s so much to learn and consider!

I know I can do it… but I didn’t think I would really start working on it in earnest so soon. But I guess there will never be a convenient time, right?

Right now I’m trying to figure out exactly what I want to do, and then how I can start to make it happen. My idea isn’t really new or too unique, so I don’t mind sharing it with you all.

Ideally, I would like to open up a small shop and sell beautiful handmade or funky things. I get lots of compliments on my taste and style–I always seem to find the cool things before anyone else does. Why not capitalize on that? I’ve got the marketing background which is so critical to running a business, it’s just figuring out how I translate all my big-company thinking to a smaller scale! But I think it will be a lot of fun.

So now that you know the general idea behind my shop, what do you think? If you were my customer, what kinds of things would you like to see there, or what could I do to stand out? As I mentioned, I won’t be the only shop to offer handmade one of a kind things.

I’d like to make it accessible though. I find a lot of those stores cater to the more affluent people, and shut out the folks who can’t afford a $300 beaded necklace. I want to make sure that everything I sell is reasonably priced; style should not be reserved for only the rich!

I would carry just about anything, from jewelery and accessories to home decor, books and maybe even clothing. Just cool stuff in general. I want the store to be an experience when people walk in! I will have a strong focus on customer service and would be involved with the community by supporting local artists, events and charities.

Now I just need to figure out how to make this happen! And also think up a name :s Oy!

Hmm. I started this post with the intent to complain about my job and lousy luck in the job hunt. Oh well. I’d rather think about my dream business, anyway 😛

EF Question

I had a thought about my emergency fund:

I’ve been contributing to it regularly and will continue to do so until I reach my goal of 3-6 months of living expenses.

So when I reach that goal, what do I do with it? Do I stop contributing to it? Do I keep going, but with smaller deposits? The same size deposits?

To all my PF blogger friends out there, what did you do, or what are you planning to do? Time to break out your “advice” hats and fill me in!

Mmm mmm Good!

I did a bit of a grocery shop this weekend and am set to do some cooking this week!

As part of my goals I laid out for myself this year, cooking at home falls under managing my finances better and living healthier. I will hopefully save some money this way and also regulate what I am eating at lunch and at dinner.

This weekend was bad for me in terms of health–I totally binged on all the crap that is at my parents’ house. I think I probably consumed enough calories for a normal week in just 2 days. Ugh.

Anyway, I’m trying to get back in line, so this week I actually *gasp!* planned some meals for myself ahead of time. Since space is at a premium in my apartment I can’t just keep a ton of food on hand. It also goes rotten pretty quick when only one person is eating it…

Anyroad, tonight my plan is to make my very own quiche for the first time, as well as some chocolate chip cookies (I’m trying Mama Bear’s recipe!) and a curried carrot soup (my roommate bought a giant bag of carrots and asked me to use them up for her…).

If things go well I might photo-document the final results and let you know how they turned out.

On another note, I haven’t forgotten about the bathroom/kitchen reno saga. It’s just that I wanted to post photos of the finished product… and unfortunately now that the bulk of the work is done the guys are slow as molasses in getting the final details finished.

My kitchen and bathroom are functional… but all the pretty little details are lacking! I promise that once most of the work is done I will be sure to post some before and after photos!

Bye bye, Christmas!

I finally got most of my Christmas stuff put away… with the renovations still not complete it’s hard to get organized, but I’m slowly getting there.

Tonight I skipped my kung fu (which I feel really guilty about since I haven’t been in months now) but ended up sweeping our upstairs landing, the entire staircase inside the apartment and the foyer. Then I washed it all. On my hands and knees. Using elbow grease and a sponge.

The water was BLACK by the time I was done. The worst part is, it is so dirty I think I’ll have to wash all the floors again since this only took off one of the multiple layers of crud caked on my floors. They used to be beautiful gleaming hardwood floors, now they’re just a faded version of themselves. It’s quite sad.

The bright side of this is that I didn’t freeze to death. It’s -30 C (-22 F for you Americans out there) and even my super-warm apartment has cooled significantly. I can normally walk around in my undies and be comfortable, but today I had to get fully dressed in warm things and slippers. The horror!

I can’t really remember where I was going with this post. I stayed up late last night watching episodes of Big Love on my laptop and now I regret it. Oops.

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Financial Update

I’ve just updated my tracking bars on the side and have also decided to make a few changes.

Primarily, I’ve decided that right now is just not a good time to buy a Vespa, what with the economy the way it is and the chance that I might lose my job. It would involve large upfront and ongoing costs. I could handle it in a good economy, but not this one.

The decision was difficult, but I’m switching all the money I saved for travel and the scooter into my emergency fund, and my old emergency fund into my fun & travel fund.

Got that? 😉

I feel better now, knowing that I’ve got at least two grand to fall back on. Now I just need to moderate my spending. I’m also going to try and do what everyone else in the PF world seems able to do: actually sock the money away.

I want to actually reach my EF goal, and then move onto the next one, I suppose. I will continue to simultaneously contribute to all of my accounts, but anything extra I receive will go into the EF from now on. I will also try and use it less!

The next change I made was swap the Wedding Fund account into a TFSA. We’ll see how that works out.

I also updated my networth through NetworthIQ. I am SO happy to see it starting to go up again. My RRSP’s have gone up since the huge drop in October, and my credit cards owing has also gone down, increasing my networth overall.
Thank goodness!

This year seems to be off to a good start. Now I’ve got to keep it going that way!

*Don’t forget to enter the draw for my give-away of 3 FUZE prize packs!