I think I might have to kick my roommate out.

She hasn’t paid for February rent yet and it’s almost March. How is she going to come up with 2 rent payments for the end of the week if she can’t even make one?

I am just so tired of this. I can’t even call her to ask her to come home to talk because her phone has been cut off. So I’m sitting here waiting for her to come home (if she does at all) when I’d rather be in bed.

I know that she’s having trouble finding a job and making money, and that she’s working on it. But seriously, every couple of months there is some kind of financial issue with her. She owes ME money for our internet bill, too. Am I just supposed to eat that?

If I ask her to move out though, I am afraid she’ll piss off and leave me with the other half of Feb & Mar rent to make up, and that would be a few thousand dollars! I can’t afford that! I called my dad because I was so frustrated about this. He said he would lend me the cash if it came to that… but I really hate borrowing money.

“Never a borrower nor a lender be”

That’s one of our family sayings, and we believe in it deeply. Lately I’ve been finding myself as a lender to friends…

It’s like I’m the Bank of Ginger!

Don’t have any cash but still want to go out? Ask G to spot you a few bucks. Get her to pay your cover and tip the waitress while you’re at it!

I love my friends but this bothers me sometimes. I am the only one that has a solid grip on her finances and they know it, so they feel like it’s ok to ask me for money.

It’s not ok! I make the same or less amount of money than them! Just because I handle my finances better doesn’t mean I can pass out free money! Ugh. I offer to help them get themselves on the right track but I don’t know if it will ever work.

I am just pissed about money lately. I’m still making the same amount I started with over 2 years ago at this job. Fucking economy. Now I’m worried that my roommate is going to default on everything and I’ll be stuck holding the bill.

I don’t understand why she hasn’t moved out before this??? She can’t even feed herself regularly! Wouldn’t you take that as a sign that you’re living beyond your means?

Gah. Don’t tell me I should get my own place because I can’t. I just can’t afford it AND a decent life at the same time, otherwise I would be out of here like a bat out of hell.

Sometimes I hate being the most responsible one. It seems like everyone else is off having a great time while I worry about things and pick up the slack.

I shall be updating soon!

I have a review of the spa I went to on the weekend in the works and a recap of my girls’/anti-valentine’s/Chinese New Year weekend!

PS… did you know you can read eBooks on your iPod Touch? I had no idea! I’m reading the Iliad now

A lot has been going on for me lately. A lot of good stuff, and a lot of mundane stuff. I think I’m so wrapped up in dealing with it that I haven’t been able to sit down and blog about it.

It’s not that I don’t have free time–it’s just that my free time is consumed with thoughts and plans and worries and the types of things that eat your time before you know it!

I wish I could write more about it, but there are some inner conflicts right now and I think its better that I wait and form my thoughts before blurting them out here on a public blog.

I feel like something big is coming. I have no idea what it could be. It could be good, bad, neutral, and in any sphere of my life. I’ve never been wrong about this feeling before. Something is coming but I don’t know what. It’s like scenting rain on the wind. Will it be a big storm? A warm shower? A little drizzle? Who knows?

All I know is that it will bring change to my life. Hmmmm.

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Fingers crossed that it is a good, painless change.

OK, I have another confession to make.

It’s about the Genuine Health 21-Day pH Challenge.

I haven’t started it yet. I was supposed to start it at the beginning of the month, and look, it’s the 25^th already! For shame!

I feel even worse about it because

1)      The Genuine Health people are awesome (Aurea, show this to your boss!) and very knowledgeable and helpful and I feel like I’ve let them down.

2)      I REALLY need to do this.

On the special pH section of the website (here) you can take a quiz to see if you’re too acidic, and there’s information on what excess acidity will do to your body. Well let me tell you, I am in a bad way right now. My skin is retarded, my digestion has just been shot for the past week or so (possible stomach bug but I think it has more to do with my poor food choices lately) and my energy is down which means that my vitamin levels are likely out of whack.

If there was ever a good candidate for balancing their pH, it would be me!

I like the GH products, like their Healthy Skin Chews (I eat them at my desk) and their  Greens+ Instant Smoothie. When I take them properly, I can really see the results. I feel better, I have more energy, my skin glows, I can focus better at work and even my mood improves!

I just have to make sure to take them. They don’t even taste that bad… but I just can’t seem to work them into my daily routine. I guess that is more a reflection on my routine than on the products themselves.

This month I wanted to try and establish a routine, but it seems my life is not conforming to my wishes right now! Late nights, crazy schedule, new and exacting demands. I have a lot going on right now. But if I don’t take care of my health then I will experience burnout soon. Which is why I really want to start my pH challenge, and why I am putting this up for the world to see so you can push me and remind me to do this!

Health is an important thing. If you don’t have your health, nothing else in life is worth it. I’ve just passed my quarter-century and have been making changes in my life. I think this is the year I need to focus more on health. Healthy body, healthy mind.

If you would like to join me in the 21-Day Challenge (along with your 30 Day Shred challenge! LOL) you can find out more information on the Genuine Health website, or their Facebook page. I like the Facebook page for the discussions and tips that are on it!

Forgive me readers, for I have sinned. It has been 7 days since my last confession update.

You know, I thought January was going to be a really boring month. It usually is. No one has money, the weather stinks and people just want to hibernate.

I came into this month all ready to go with some new personal projects of mine (21-day pH challenge, going to the gym more, reading some of my many books) and I haven’t done a darn thing yet!

This month has really surprised me! Between the Mr. Darcy drama, increased responsibilities at work (yay!) my big-ass birthday and more, I’m having difficulty just trying to find the time to do my hair! Sheesh!

I wonder if February will be the same? I feel like it’s creeping up so quickly!

So I just wanted to let everyone know what’s up with me these days. I will definitely have more in the coming weeks because I DO plan on doing the pH challenge (Genuine Health is running it and it sounds really interesting to me! Check it out!) and I have a few other product reviews or mentions to get through.

Oh… and I’m seeing Mr. Darcy tomorrow night. What will happen? No one knows! He may be a total jerk outside of work and “only” have an hour for me… or it could turn out that he’s totally awesome and is willing to dump his gf for me (not likely). OR the most likely option is that he’s just cool and wants to be friends.

I feel like my life is a bizarre soap opera, so stay tuned, fine viewers and see what drama unfolds!

Oh, in an effort to get some reader involvement, is there anything you guys would like me to write about? I’ve got some ideas bumping around in my head but they need a bit more form. They’re more my thoughts about certain topics, maybe a little personal stuff. *shrugs* It’s easier to write if you have a topic in mind, so…. suggestions?

I’ve been reading a bunch of horoscopes for the new year lately. This is a fantastic time to read them because it’s the beginning of the year and they’re out in abundance. All the major news outlets usually have at least a small blurb on them, and some of the bigger astrology sites will even offer some free detailed reports for the year ahead.

I’m a planner and I love to know what’s going to happen…so I can plan for it! LOL So horoscopes really hit the spot for me in terms of entertainment and gentle guidance. Some people like to dismiss them as some silly frou-frou thing that flakey people like, but I think that’s too harsh of a rap.

I like to think of them as good reminders and guides for daily life. They remind you to appreciate what you have, (or to hold your tongue!) and often offer advice that is good at any time; even if they don’t “come true” at the end of the day. Sometimes they also can inspire hope and positive thinking, which in itself is quite beneficial and can become a self-fulfilling prophesy.

I particularly enjoy reading personal profiles and the weekly, monthly and yearly readings that become available. Some horoscopes are better than others…and some are eerily accurate. I REALLY like those ones! Everyone loves to hear about themselves and I am no exception! So I thought I’d share some of my favourite astrology websites with you.

I don’t have very many since so many places want to charge you an arm and a leg for a simple reading. In theory I could go off and learn how to read the stars on my own, but I just don’t feel like it. I already read tarot/oracle and pendulum and don’t really feel like learning a new technique! I’ve also got some friends who can do readings for me too, if I need it.

So long story short, these sites offer some pretty decent astrology readings at everyone’s favourite price of FREE!

Astrodienst

This one is pretty cool. They give you free daily horoscopes (filled with useful anytime advice!) in addition to decent samples of their many reports (love, compatibility, career, health, etc.). You can sign up and input your exact birth information to get very detailed reports that are specific to you and not just your sun sign!

The full reports will cost you, as will the extended daily horoscopes, but I find the shortened versions quite good anyway.

I’ve actually purchased a couple of the more in-depth reports for myself. Just for fun, really, but they do make you think more about things in your life, and can give you some insight into certain issues.

This is a cool site to explore.

AstrologyZone

This lady whips up some awesome monthly forecasts for free. While they’re not as specific as the Astrodienst ones they’re still pretty good.

I love that they’re long and cover a lot of aspects in your life, plus her writing style is engaging. They include advice, anecdotes and special dates to look out for. I look forward to reading mine every month!

January is supposed to be awesome for me. (I’m a Cap) We’ll see how things pan out!

AstroCenter.com

The classic. I’m pretty sure that everyone has heard of this site before. Nothing too fancy, but it includes your Chinese horoscope plus a numerology reading for the day. I think there’s even a tarot card of the day!

A little on the fluffy side, but it can be a good pick-me-up in the mornings and every once in a while it’s accurate! (only once in a while though…)

Those are my top 3 so far… Plus I read the Globe & Mail and Toronto Star horoscopes every day, as well.

Do you have any websites that you like to get your horoscopes from? Have you ever gotten a spookily-accurate one before?

Share in the comments!

PS…would anyone with divination talents like to give me a free reading?

My heart is still heavy from the news. I feel physically ill and I’m sure my crying jag didn’t help last night. My eyes are still sore and puffy despite a liberal application of Garnier’s Anti-puff eye roller.

I know it may not be a big deal to some people. But for me it cuts deep. I am thankful that I didn’t make a fool of myself in any way, or proceed too far with anything, but it still hurts. I feel like I’ve been duped.

All my life I have been alone. I thought this might be different. It felt different. I guess it’s not really his fault he’s got someone already, so I’m not really mad at him.

I’m more upset with myself for misreading everything, over analyzing and getting my hopes up. If there’s one thing life has taught me thus far it’s that I should never, ever get my hopes up for anything. Each time I have they end up being crushed.

I feel like an outcast. Why aren’t there any men that like me? (And those that say they do… why can’t I just lower my standards and like them back?)  I’m seriously puzzled. Why is it so hard for me to take action and get what I want in these situations (oh wait that’s right. Shit like this always happens. Or they’re gay. Or I get rejected.)

I’m successful at a lot of things in life; but this are has just been one giant failure. No matter how much I pray, how many self-help books I read, dating sites I’m on and how many friends I enlist for advice, I’m afraid that I am just destined to be alone.

This isn’t just about Mr. Darcy. It’s about the greatest failure in my life.

:*o(

He has a girlfriend.

This has not yet processed in my brain. I don’t know what to think or feel.

I think I may cry later.

How could this happen??????

I did it.

Sadly however, I got his voicemail.

Happily, I didn’t sound like a retard when I left a message, asking him to call me back.

I feel a lot better that I’ve done this, but I’m sure that in 5 minutes I’ll be back to panicking and stressing over when he calls back, and how THAT conversation will go.

Gawd, I’m so ashamed of my behaviour!

I’m going to call Mr. Darcy tonight.